Real Stories. Real Healing.

“I realized I was addicted to my depression—and I didn’t even know it.”

Meghan shares how ketamine therapy brought her peace, clarity, and a life-changing shift in self-awareness she never expected.

Transcript
Meghan:
I don’t even know if I had hope before the ketamine. Not like I do now.

“I don’t even know if I had hope before the ketamine. Not like I do now.”

Nobody knew really how dark my life was. People around me had no idea. A whole part of my depression and my life is the lack of control. So I tried to control everything that I possibly could—and this was an absolute, just jump of faith.

I have never been in an altered state in my entire life. I smoked once in college—that was the extent of my extremities. I came in with anxiety and fear, and the minute I walked in here, that was all washed away. It was just like, Okay, now I just need to trust the process.

It was supportive, loving—like, everything that you would want. It was just like, Okay, yeah. Let’s get you some help.

The nurse was amazing. Talked me through anything I needed to ask. I never once felt less than.

And I remember, in the middle of my infusion, I remember thinking, The state that I’m in right now is the best state that I’ve ever been in my entire life. There’s no worries, there’s no concerns. I don’t have to do anything.

“The state that I’m in right now is the best state that I’ve ever been in my entire life.”

The comparison before and after is painful. And throughout this transition—this huge transition in my life—even changing jobs, and now going through a divorce, I have not once been depressed.

I’m very analytical, and I’m a very type-A personality. And so every single one of my treatments, I float through my body and I float through my brain.

And I found my addiction. It was right behind my ear. And I now have a tattoo to remember it by.

“I realized in that session that I was addicted to my depression. And that was a huge, huge eye-opening moment.”

I’ve never even thought that before.