Real Stories. Real Healing.
“It used to feel like I was my depression. Now I feel like me.”
Sarah shares how ketamine therapy helped her move from feeling stuck and years behind to regaining her independence, joy, and sense of self.
Transcript
Sarah:
I didn’t feel like I was myself. I felt like I was my anxiety and my depression—and then myself, like third. I was after everything else.
“I felt like I was my anxiety and my depression—and then myself, like third.”
There were a lot of milestones that everybody else was making that I couldn’t make. I couldn’t get my license. I wasn’t going off to college. I couldn’t hold a full-time job. I just kind of felt like I was years behind where everybody else was.
Genuinely, it was probably the darkest time of my life.
We knew that I needed something to help me manage my depression and anxiety symptoms, but we couldn’t figure out what that was gonna be next. But it was that first phone call that just gave us a reassurance we didn’t know we needed.
I had never had an IV put in my arm before, and I felt so safe. And I felt so comfortable. And I felt just… peaceful.
“Peaceful is a word that I use a lot when I describe this experience to other people.”
My mom noticed changes pretty immediately. And now, this time afterwards—after I’ve gone through all the treatments—it feels like it’s me, a bunch of other things, and then my anxiety and depression.
“It feels like I can put myself first, and I can be the person that I want to be.”
I’m able to do things that I never thought I’d be able to do—like driving a car. I go on trips with my grandma again, which has been wonderful. And I’m back in school, getting a degree. I’m doing everything I never thought I would be able to do.
You’re gonna have days where you can finally wake up and you have the energy to do things—not just get out of bed, but to do things.
You have the energy to walk your dog, and then when you go outside to walk your dog, the trees—they’re green and they’re bright and they’re colorful, and you feel refreshed because the breeze is blowing, and the sky has never looked so bright and wonderful.
“Then you realize that you had been spending so long in a world that felt gray… and that it wasn’t gray anymore.”